Follow @gavinthomson Gavin Thomson
 12.2.2012 

I feel absolutely clean inside, and there is nothing but pure euphoria. I have never felt so great, or believed this to be possible. The cleanliness, clarity, and marvelous feeling of solid inner strength continued throughout the rest of the day, and evening, and through the next day. I am overcome by the profundity of the experience, and how much more powerful it was than previous experiences, for no apparent reason, other than a continually improving state of being. All the next day I felt like ‘a citizen of the universe’ rather than a citizen of the planet, completely disconnecting time and flowing easily from one activity to the next.

As the material came on I felt that I was being enveloped, and my attention had to be directed to it. I became quite fearful, and my face felt cold and ashen. I felt that I wanted to go back, but I knew there was no turning back. Then the fear started to leave me, and I could try taking little baby steps, like taking first steps after being reborn. The woodpile is so beautiful, about all the joy and beauty that I can stand. I am afraid to turn around and face the mountains, for fear they will overpower me. But I did look, and I am astounded. Everyone must get to experience a profound state like this. I feel totally peaceful. I have lived all my life to get here, and I feel I have come home. I am complete.

The inventor of MDMA records his experiences of 120mg dosage. Drugs, and their committed fans, are very much a mixed bag. This is not an endorsement of this particular drug, or any of them. The writing is beautiful, that’s all.
 11.30.2012   11.19.2012   11.8.2012 

People watching television series used to have to wait till the next week to see what happened, now you can get it on iPlayer, you can download it through torrents, people have seen it before it’s made sometimes. It’s a wider change in society that has had a detrimental effect on football.

One of the things I try to encourage is a sense of belief and culture, and a sense of continuity. When I was 17, 18, 19 everyone we knew who was older, we’d ask about the 50s, ‘What was Finney like? Why did United not win 3 European Cups with a forward line of Best, Charlton and Law?’ I wanted to find out about these things. It struck me the other day that young lads now, they don’t ask me questions about all the stuff I’ve seen.

Growing up, I remember reading Salinger, I think it was Franny and Zooey or Seymour: An Introduction, one of those, and it says, ‘For me, I didn’t have fairytales; the Great Gatsby was my fairytale.’ I read that and thought, ‘You know what? My fairytales were all Billy Lidell and Albert Stubbins.’ That’s what I grew up on. It made me want to watch more and it seemed like a wider thing that I was into.

There’s something brilliant about singing the songs your father sang, and when you lose that part of the game, it just becomes entertainment, instead of being culture.

Extract from an interview with the football writer, Tony Evans.
 10.30.2012 
“But in the troubled sleep of De Beauvoir Town, monsters crawl and swim; memory traces of old Hackney bedlams, the shit and straw of satanic madhouses lurking beyond the walls of the City. Blotting up damage. Incubi and succubi attend the recently impoverished with garlands of nightsweat: final demands, failed commissions, overdue novels. A face that is your face in a mirror that refuses to recognize it. Nakedness as the final disguise. Until that story too can be captured, polished and made tame.”
Iain Sinclair, in his Hackney book
 10.23.2012 

banky stuff

  • 8 minute documentary on UK banks, and their links with UK Government. Concise. Detailed.
  • The Little Book of Ideas’. from Occupy London’s Economics Working Group. An introduction to basic financial terms and concepts, reformist policies and individual financial activism. Really great. Hats off to that particular working group.
  • Guide to Sustainable Banking. PDF. Substantial. Wide-ranging.
  • The Debt Resistor’s Operations Manual. from another Occupy economics working group I think (this time from OccupyWallStreet). This looks like it’s going to be a big deal. Deliberate, coordinated, consumer defaulting - if in substantial numbers - has real potential to make waves.

 10.23.2012   10.22.2012 
“With friends and strangers I can be no one; more and more I confine myself to their company. Then one day I enter a room full of acquaintances, and fly into a blind panic: I cannot remember for the life of me who these people think I am …”
Don Paterson. 
 09.10.2012 

Nicki Minaj - who’s some sort of figure in your young people’s popular music - says lots of true and funny things in a short amount of time. Thanks to Aisha.

 09.3.2012 

this is my favourite song today. well maybe not all today, but right now right this minute.

bjork 
 09.3.2012 

this is 2nd fav.

 07.20.2012 
“Huckleberry Finn took the first journey back. He was the first to look back at the republic from the perspective of the west. His eyes were the first eyes that ever looked at us objectively that were not eyes from overseas. There were mountains at the frontier but he wanted more than mountains to look at with his restive eyes—he wanted to find out about men and how they lived together. And because he turned back we have him forever.”
F. Scott Fitzgerald. (Thanks to Tom Conoboy for highlighting this gem). It suggests to me there should be a blog - like AwesomePeopleHangingOutTogether - called, maybe, AwesomePeopleWritingAboutEachOther. Does such exist? Please let me know.
 06.17.2012 

Howard Zinn on Activism: “Don’t Give Up”

 06.11.2012 
“I would like to try to tell such a story, if he means the kind that begins: “There was a woman…” followed by plot, the absolute line between two points which I’ve always despised. Not for literary reasons, but because it takes all hope away. Everyone, real or invented, deserves the open destiny of life.”
Grace Paley’s marvellous short story, A Conversation With My Father. Lovely musings on the nature of storytelling, and short stories in particular.
Here is Ali Smith reading it aloud, and then spraffing about it briefly. This is a real treat. Don’t bother with the rest of this blog; this is the best thing here.
 06.4.2012 

Rufus’ cover of Leonard’s song about Janis. Some really great people. Some very sad thoughts.

You told me again you preferred handsome men 

but for me you would make an exception. 

And clenching your fist for the ones like us 

who are oppressed by the figures of beauty, 

you fixed yourself, you said, “Well never mind, 

we are ugly but we have the music.”